I always did like Spock better than Kirk.

"You have incredibly high expectations of yourself," she told me, aghast.

It was nice to hear someone say it. "I just want to be reasonable," I told myself the same way I'd told myself that I mustn't let emotion get in the way of my judgement.

"You're so reasonable," I've been told. "You're not at all like a girl. You're so logical."

I just want to be reasonable, I told myself over and over. I still tell myself. And who knows, maybe my life is better for it. But sometimes I wonder if I'm not crippled for thinking this way.